So Special - Oka ft. Sabria

reff: special in my eyes
since you’re in my life
always on my mind
so special in my eyes

everyday and night
i feel i found home
and singing you this song
you never be alone
special in my eyes

i can’t wait til the sun comes down
cause a good girl is so hard to find
see i train to obey your order
just like a soldier, sir yes sir

i wanna be your number one
without you i’m half blank like minus one
i think about you all the time
before i go to sleep everynight

ur first thing in the morning
got you inside me since day one
bury me six feet deep underground
it’s crazy yeah you proudly would
pray for your love too
if you was in my shoes

when you down i got you chill
towards you i stay class til forever still
i’m drawn to be down with you
in my arms girl
you’d be safe inside

repeat reff

eventhough you play hard to get
i never expect you would like me back
it’s hard to believe we connect
day by day we seize down the gap
to the sky we fled

i still remember the first time we met
arbitary girl is like a fairy tale
it fast left me drain completely
and ever since then
i blend with my misery

but everything is different now
coming at you is the ring and the wedding gown
you gotta be around when i’m down
be a good friend, the most profound

cause i’m gonna do the same thing
without you i’m senseless
cause you’re my instinct
di celah kaki hujan
kita berdansa, bercumbu dalam asa

everything is gonna be alright
trust me cause i’m giving you my life
how do i get you to understand
i gotta have you more than just a friend

i gotta have you to be my last
i don’t want you to be my past
baby no doubt, in a matter of fact
i wanna be your future
ku seduh kasih sehalus sutera

i want you to be my last
and i don’t want you to be my past
baby no doubt, in a matter of fact
i wanna be your future
bernafas dalam ikatan suci

everything is gonna be alright
trust me cause i’m giving you my life
how do i get you to understand
all i want is you to be my man

My Dreams Part II

my dreams? it means it more than one hehe

let me to list my dream and give the reasons:

1. I wanna be a student at Indonesia University (UI) in Psychology Faculty or Communication Faculty. because i wanna be a psychologist and i'm so interested with communication

2. I wanna be an announcer in radio in Jakarta. because i love the way Panda talked, Desta, Bekti and the other announcer in Prambors, Trax Fm, OzRadio, etc. i wanna be like them. it is my ambition since i was in Junior School

3. I wanna be a news presenter. It because of my teacher who helped me to found my natural ability. It is my dream that i must to get.

4. I wanna be a vocalist band. Why? Because my hobby is singing. I know my voice isn't great as KD or Rossa, but i love to sing. Very love it. And why i choose to be a vocalist band? Why don't choose solo carrier? Because i know, i am not a girl that love alone ahaha. I love Lenka, Ran, Vierra, Ten2Five, Maroon5, Paramore, Monita, Maliq n de Essential, Alexa, Avril Lavigne, etc. And we will record our songs and then get the label and we'll tour to promote our band hahaha that's so IMPOSSIBLE. But i know and trust that nothing is impossible in this world :)

5. I wanna marry with my Prince Charming. Yeah just like princess, i want he come to me with gentle horse (oh yeaaaah) and ask me to marry him hahhaa just like in fairytale, right? No i'm just kidding hehe.. Of course all of you want to marry. But, i mean in here is marry with the right person. Whoever he is, wherever he from or bla bla bla, i just wanna have a happy ending story with my future. So, for me, i just wanna marry with the Right Person. He doesn't have to be a Prince William look or make the castle for me or buy me a limousine or whatever the sucks things which not give me a guarantee to have a happy life. I wanna marry with the Right Person whom God sent to me and love me just the i way i am and also give me a happy life until the end of my life. That's so dramatic! Hahha but that's my dream :)

So guys, please wish me to reach my dreams.. Don't let me to forget those dreams just because of i can't. Because, nothing is impossible in this world, right?

Wish me luck! :)

Orang Sabar Disayang Allah :)

hahhaa orang sabar disayang Allah? iyalah..

yaaa cuma mau sharing aja nih

kan akhir akhir ini posting gue all about school ya

kan terakhir gue milih yg swasta tu.. nah gue milih pindahnya Juni

itu gue udah pasrah aja tu masuk sekolah itu (sekolah bagus siiih)

nah ternyata, pakde gue mau nolongin gue buat masuk sekolah negeri

dia keliling Jakarta dah tu nyariin sekolah yg bisa nerima gue

dan dapetlah SMA N 71 Jakarta Timur

gue sih awalnya asik asik aja, sekolah bagus tuh

eh ternyata my cousin ga setuju kayanya kalo gue satu sekolah sama dia

yah mungkin risih kali yaaa.. gue kalo jadi dia juga ga mau sih hehe :P

terus ya gue agak ga enak gitu jadinya

yah gue pikir pikir lagi lah jadinya buat nerima tawaran itu

dan akhirnya gue tolak tawaran itu dengan berbagai pertimbangan

yah batal deh masuk sekolah bagus. tapi ga papa lah daripada my cousin keberatan?

eh tiba tiba pakde gue nge wall gitu di fb gue

dia bilang SMA N 12 juga bisa

ya Allaaaaah seneng banget gue

itu sekolahnya ga terlalu jauh dan ada beberapa my old friends disitu

senangnyaaaaaa

dan insya Allah diterima..

amin ya robbal alamin :)

wish me luck yaaaa muach muach :)

already have the decision

finally i will move to Jakarta to SMA Diponegoro 1

yes and i already accepted on there

but the school said that it will be better if i move quickly

but it also will accept me if i move there went i grade 12

actually i'm confuse to make the decision. WHEN is the best?

i already bored in here, but i told you so that the only one reason is my boy

but i don't wanna tell about him now

actually i'm still confuse huhu :(

i don't wanna make a wrong decision

ah i don't know lah

i will think about it again

soooo confuse huhu

what does he mean?

hey yesterday there was someone sent me a message and it was a song. Pasto - Jujur Aku Tak Sanggup *i love this song so much actually hehe

i didn't know who, but i realized the way typed that person on that message

it was so familiar, and i guessed it was from my ex

and yes! i was right!

hah? i so surprised, why he sent me a message? we have been lost contact for 2 months. what does it mean?

yeah i didn't care about that message

but he sent me a message again which in conclusion he still love me

oh my G0d, i so wanted to told him "that's a bullshit! i don't caaaarreeeee! you pushed me away a long time ago! and now you want me back? what the fvck!"

i know i ever spent my time with him more than a year but i still remember that he ever threw me away!

i know he was lie and i don't care anymore

so i told to Yudha this morning about that yeah he just laughed hahha and that is one of many reasons why i love him so much hahaha

for my ex, actually i don't wanna hurt you yaa but that's me haha

God, Help Me

i'm so confuse

yes, it's still about my move

it is so complicated! and about the validation

and now i have to search schools again which can accept me

i don't care anymore its state school or private school. they are same

oh God please help me and my family..

make it easier God..

bilingual

do you know what the title mean?

it means my blog will be a bilingual blog hahaha

ya blog gue jadi 2 bahasa gitu

kalo gue lagi pengen pake bahasa gue ya gue pake

tapi bakal dominan English kok

kan i wanna upgrade my English via blogging

by the way i think it's not too important post haha